“When I would wake in the night, I would immediately have a hormonal wave go through me like a rally cry, banging at my mind, yelling “WAKE UP, THE BABY NEEDS YOU! CHECK THAT SHE’S STILL BREATHING!” After checking that the baby was breathing, I should have gone right back to sleep, but I’d be wide awake with a renewed expectation that surely the baby would cry soon and I’d have to get up all over again.”